GET ON WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is what I've been yelling at myself for the past little while. I don't know if you've seen Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail or not, but I thought I'd spice this up with a little pic as well...
Yep, I need to get on with it (!!). I've been around 155 pounds for about 2 months now and I UNDERSTAND that that is a pretty good weight to be and that there are a bazillion people in the world that would LOVE to be that weight etc. etc. etc.

However.
I am not those people and I have my own particular journey that I'm working on and staying at the same weight for this long IS. NOT. ACCEPTABLE. I am only 3.2 pounds away from the goal I first set for myself last year - that is the weight at which attending weight watchers meetings will be free for me again. I have been "so close, yet so far away" for way too stinking long!

So.
I have decided that I'm going to make myself go to weight watchers every week (and pay for it every week) until I've reached 152 pounds (my next goal). Normally, I only go once a month, but that doesn't seem to have been working for me and if I know that it is costing me ... and a lot! every week, then I might be more motivated to GET ON WITH IT.

Having said that - I made this decision yesterday and I did not do the most fantastic today. I have been trying to limit what I eat and trying to drink my water, but I did not write down what I ate and I actually was not able to exercise. But, I am still motivated and think that the sooner I lose these 3.2 pounds the less money it'll cost me.

So, my goals are as follows:
~to drink water a lot. I usually don't include this in my goals, but I'm thinking it might keep me from eating too much or choosing coffee with cream instead.
~to start writing down what I'm eating (but man, that's gonna be hard cuz I'm so totally addicted to eating right now... but i can do it - i've done it before and i'll do it again).
~to come here and blog about it alot
~to try to exercise as often as possible

And that's that.

((My sister just got here and we're gonna go watch a movie. :o) (without binging, I hope)))

Tomorrow

Oh I'm having one of those weeks/weekends where I'm not really trying too hard... my plan is to start strong again tomorrow. Seems like every time I want to restart again something comes up to distract me or something. But, I don't think I've really gained weight here so that is okay - I'm going to WW on Tuesday - no matter what. I know I'm gonna try to think of some reason not to, but I really need to go. Paying money to not lose weight isn't an option, so maybe if I pay that'll motivate me!!

Anyway, this was just a little nothing post to say that tomorrow is gonna be different.

For real this time.

Stupid Murphy's Law

Okay, something I like to do is set my alarm a little early and get up to exercise before the kids wake up. But for the past 2 weeks (when we were at home, at least), Elan has been waking up earlier and earlier - yesterday and the day before it was something like 20 after 6. So, today I decided not to get up at 6:00 only to be interrupted in the middle of a jog. I woke up at 6:30 when Trevor left, but again, didn't get on the treadmill because I thought Elan would be up any minute.

Well.

Its now 7:23 and she is just starting to babble in there. And I could easily have gotten my walk/jog done.

Grrrrrrrrrr.

Guess I'll try to sneak one in at nap time...

Sigh

Okay, I've been avoiding this here blog for quite some time now. And I've been avoiding eating properly for about as long.

Boo.

We went away (twice), we had a lot of treats, I got off of my routine, and I just basically decided to enjoy myself.

Sigh.

I've been trying to get back on the bandwagon since Saturday - when we came back home - and I guess you could say that every day is going a wee bit better than the last, but I still have yet to do a day properly... that is, to exercise, and to write down my points and stay within them. I might do it today yet, but I'm not sure - we'll see how the rest of the afternoon goes!!

I always start the day on track, and then its just a matter of time until I just go nuts, and totally lose it. So, we'll see.

I just want to be good without spending my whole day thinking about food and what I wish I was eating and what I'm gonna eat next. I'm such an addict. It sucks.

But this is, afterall, a Lifelong Journey, is it not? So, it doesn't end here - I'm gonna keep trying.

Stupid Food.
Stupid Addiction.

Guess What?

Well Easter weekend went fairly well and a little bit bad, but mostly really well. I went for my first ever jog outside (oh yeah, I think I mentioned that already)... and I stayed out of the candy for the most part. I did have a few oopses but I have vowed to focus on the positive. So here it is...
I bought a new bathing suit on Saturday and it is a size 8!

A SIZE EIGHT!!!!!

I never thought my body would fit into clothing numbered that small. It was a definite first for me - I got down to a size 9 last time, but this time I'm feeling smaller, even though my weight on the scale is still higher than my lowest weight a couple of years ago. Maybe its the exercise? I don't know, but its nice.

So, what did YOU do right this weekend?? I'm sure there was something...!

Happy Easter!

I can't believe its been 10 days since I've posted here. I've been alive - plugging away. I've been doing fairly well (or really well) this week so far. I went to the WW meeting and it helped me to have some good ideas for how to prep for this Easter weekend. I've been doing my best and I"ll share more with you later...
But for now I just wanted to share that today I went for a jog OUTSIDE! Where people could see me!!! Yeah, it was crazy. I enjoyed it but I found it to be tougher than the treadmill cuz I didn't know how fast I was going, and I think I went too fast and got tired out pretty quickly. But still, it was great and I'm proud.
I hope you're all having a good Easter! Enjoy it! But not too many mini eggs.... :o)

This Really Spoke To Me Today

Please go check out this article about our obsession with the scale, and our weight. I think it was exactly what I needed to hear this morning. I didn't go to WW yesterday cuz I knew the scale wasn't gonna show a loss - but I've been doing really well the past few weeks as far as exercise and lifestyle change goes. So, I'm going to go with the above mentioned article - which you should really really go see - and say that the lifestyle changes and exercise are more important than a scale telling me that my body mass is half a pound less than the week before. That is only one way to measure.
So - go read that article (you can click on the word article here and it will take you right to it... for those of you who didn't know)!