Well, I'm still around and I'm really kicking myself for not keeping up with my blogging about stuff like I want to. But, better late than never, so here I am!
I did what I said I was going to do last time I blogged, and went hardcore for a few weeks of being "perfect" - it actually started to work quite well - and I'm starting to feel thinner and better, which is great.
A couple of weeks ago, I started training for a 10K run that is happening here on June 19th. I'm sure most of you already know about it from facebook, but I haven't mentioned it here yet. The training program that we're following is something that my friend Amy and her husband found, and Amy and I have been doing it together for a couple of weeks now - well 2 weeks and 3 days, to be exact.
Before we started it, the longest I'd ever run was about 20 minutes (about 1.5 or so miles at the most, I think), and that had been a stinking miracle for me. The last time I had done that was over a year ago, and I had since really fallen off of the jogging bandwagon. oops. So, now that we have started really training, it has been kind of a crazy learning curve - the first jog we had to do, for example, was 2 miles - and we really wanted to do it all at once - no walking and jogging mixed. ACK! Well, we did fairly well - ended up walking the last bit of it (because of me). But since then, we haven't walked at all and we've been doing longer ones as well - 2.5 miles, and 3 miles so far. This coming Sunday, we're up to 3.5 miles. (ACK).
What is awesome about all of this is seeing what I'm capable of. I NEVER would have thought I could even do what we've been doing so far (let alone what is coming up soon...). Amy is such a great friend - she has been very good about encouraging (and forcing) me to get out and do my best (which turns out to be better than I'd thought). She's patient and fun and I'm really glad to have her for my training partner!!
What is not so good, is that all of this exercise makes a person hungry, and I have started to fall of the counting-my-points bandwagon. I'm still doing fairly well, but not perfectly, which will probably just mean I'll end up staying the same and not losing weight. And I'd really like to lose a tiny bit more so that my clothes start to fit comfortably again.
SO, I really need to get back at it. I tend to want to dwell on the fact that I've screwed up - that I screwed up my 50 days of perfection, for example. I know I really need to focus instead on what I'm doing well (EXERCISE!) and that I've also counted points really well for the most part. I need to not get discouraged by slow weight loss. Its all about perserverance and life change, not perfection or losing weight super quickly. I just need to make life habits and I can stick with. I know all that in my head, but I need to know it in my heart too. So, I will work on that.
In the mean time, I really want to go comfort myself with food right now, cuz my sister left for Europe today, which makes her unavailable to talk on the phone our usual 6 times per day. And also, we got a bit of bad-ish news about another family member's health - which I'll tell you more about later... and all I want is a brownie sundae. ((SIGH))
Anyway, that's what I"m thinking about today. Just thought I'd share.
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Lessons I'm Learning
Well, today I weighed in for the first time in 5 weeks. Being a lifetime member, I just have to weigh in once every calendar month. Unfortunately, that ended up being a bad thing for me this last month - I gained 2 pounds and ended up being over 2 pounds over my goal weight, and so I had to pay $16.90 because of it. Boo. I have many feelings and much venting that I want to do as a result, but I don't have a lot of time and so I'll just say that I learned that
a) I'm too new at this "maintenance" thing to not be weighing in weekly - if I'd have weighed in sooner, I would have seen that I was gaining sooner, and hopefully put a stop to it sooner
b) I cannot let up at Weight Watchers at all - not even a little bit - or I gain. I have been doing Weight Watchers this month - just with a more relaxed attitude, and I still gained 2 pounds. You might say "oh, its only 2 pounds" but if a person did that every month, you'd gain 25 pounds in one year, 50 pounds after 2 years, and 100 pounds in just 4 years. Yeah. So, that's not okay.
c) Its going to seriously be a lifelong journey of learning how to do this right. Its been over 3 years since I first started weight watchers, and I have gotten better at it in many ways - more knowledgeable at least - but it still doesn't come easy. When you go to meetings and see the thin people weighing in there - don't make assumptions about them. They might be struggling with their eating just as much as you are - they're just at a different stage in their journey. I'm such a food addict and it sucks and I hate having to live with it, but I have to live with it and so I will continue on this journey and try to improve myself slowly over time.
So, I editted my little goal ticker thing over on the right to say that my goal is now to reach the 50 pound loss mark. I was only 0.8 away at one point, but now am 4.2 pounds away. So, instead of trying to get to the 60 pound loss next, I'm gonna break that down to a smaller goal of just 50. I'm going to start this week by ACTUALLY writing down EVERYTHING I eat for the whole week and my goal is to stay within my points. I haven't properly done that for a week since July, so that is my first goal. I'm tired of spinning my wheels (or driving backwards) and so I'm hoping to get a new start this week - even if it is the week Leanne is moving away, and my cat is sick and peeing all over and we have to go to Saskatoon to say good-bye to the house that Trevor's parents have lived in since he was born (cuz his parents are moving to Alberta in September) (and we are happy for them, but its still sad to say good-bye to our saskatoon home too!). Anyway, eating is what comforts me emotionally and I've got a lot of reason to need it this week - but if I do eat for comfort, I'll just keep gaining and that is NOT. OKAY. AT. ALL.
Okay, I'm done venting for now - off to bed with me. Good night Friends. <3
a) I'm too new at this "maintenance" thing to not be weighing in weekly - if I'd have weighed in sooner, I would have seen that I was gaining sooner, and hopefully put a stop to it sooner
b) I cannot let up at Weight Watchers at all - not even a little bit - or I gain. I have been doing Weight Watchers this month - just with a more relaxed attitude, and I still gained 2 pounds. You might say "oh, its only 2 pounds" but if a person did that every month, you'd gain 25 pounds in one year, 50 pounds after 2 years, and 100 pounds in just 4 years. Yeah. So, that's not okay.
c) Its going to seriously be a lifelong journey of learning how to do this right. Its been over 3 years since I first started weight watchers, and I have gotten better at it in many ways - more knowledgeable at least - but it still doesn't come easy. When you go to meetings and see the thin people weighing in there - don't make assumptions about them. They might be struggling with their eating just as much as you are - they're just at a different stage in their journey. I'm such a food addict and it sucks and I hate having to live with it, but I have to live with it and so I will continue on this journey and try to improve myself slowly over time.
So, I editted my little goal ticker thing over on the right to say that my goal is now to reach the 50 pound loss mark. I was only 0.8 away at one point, but now am 4.2 pounds away. So, instead of trying to get to the 60 pound loss next, I'm gonna break that down to a smaller goal of just 50. I'm going to start this week by ACTUALLY writing down EVERYTHING I eat for the whole week and my goal is to stay within my points. I haven't properly done that for a week since July, so that is my first goal. I'm tired of spinning my wheels (or driving backwards) and so I'm hoping to get a new start this week - even if it is the week Leanne is moving away, and my cat is sick and peeing all over and we have to go to Saskatoon to say good-bye to the house that Trevor's parents have lived in since he was born (cuz his parents are moving to Alberta in September) (and we are happy for them, but its still sad to say good-bye to our saskatoon home too!). Anyway, eating is what comforts me emotionally and I've got a lot of reason to need it this week - but if I do eat for comfort, I'll just keep gaining and that is NOT. OKAY. AT. ALL.
Okay, I'm done venting for now - off to bed with me. Good night Friends. <3
Monday, August 3, 2009
Welcome to August!
August has arrived, and along with it, a new competition! This time it looks like there are about 6 of us who are doing it - so its gonna be a good one! :o) WW has been a challenge for me over the past few weeks, but slowly I've been getting back on the bandwagon here - but its tough. I've been re-realizing that the name of this blog is very appropriate and I will never have actually arrived at a place where I don't have to think about watching what I eat and drink and how much exercise I do. But that's life and so I'll plug away at it and do my best. This month, that means that I'm going to try to drink 48 oz of water every day, exercise every day, write down what I eat, and try to eat with moderation - staying within my weekly flexpoints. I'd love to reach my 50 lb weight loss by the end of the month but I know that I'm not supposed to set those kinds of goals - so instead I'll work on these behavioural goals for the month and see what happens!
I've been neglecting both of my blogs a lot lately - but have recently found out that I"m going to be having more time coming up (more to follow about that - see my other blog...) and so I hope to not neglect the blogs so much anymore! Here's hoping, anyway....
So, that's that - we just got home from a weekend away, so I'd better go and continue to tidy up around here! Have a great week friends! :o)
I've been neglecting both of my blogs a lot lately - but have recently found out that I"m going to be having more time coming up (more to follow about that - see my other blog...) and so I hope to not neglect the blogs so much anymore! Here's hoping, anyway....
So, that's that - we just got home from a weekend away, so I'd better go and continue to tidy up around here! Have a great week friends! :o)
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
GET ON WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is what I've been yelling at myself for the past little while. I don't know if you've seen Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail or not, but I thought I'd spice this up with a little pic as well...
Yep, I need to get on with it (!!). I've been around 155 pounds for about 2 months now and I UNDERSTAND that that is a pretty good weight to be and that there are a bazillion people in the world that would LOVE to be that weight etc. etc. etc.
However.
I am not those people and I have my own particular journey that I'm working on and staying at the same weight for this long IS. NOT. ACCEPTABLE. I am only 3.2 pounds away from the goal I first set for myself last year - that is the weight at which attending weight watchers meetings will be free for me again. I have been "so close, yet so far away" for way too stinking long!
So.
I have decided that I'm going to make myself go to weight watchers every week (and pay for it every week) until I've reached 152 pounds (my next goal). Normally, I only go once a month, but that doesn't seem to have been working for me and if I know that it is costing me ... and a lot! every week, then I might be more motivated to GET ON WITH IT.
Having said that - I made this decision yesterday and I did not do the most fantastic today. I have been trying to limit what I eat and trying to drink my water, but I did not write down what I ate and I actually was not able to exercise. But, I am still motivated and think that the sooner I lose these 3.2 pounds the less money it'll cost me.
So, my goals are as follows:
~to drink water a lot. I usually don't include this in my goals, but I'm thinking it might keep me from eating too much or choosing coffee with cream instead.
~to start writing down what I'm eating (but man, that's gonna be hard cuz I'm so totally addicted to eating right now... but i can do it - i've done it before and i'll do it again).
~to come here and blog about it alot
~to try to exercise as often as possible
And that's that.
((My sister just got here and we're gonna go watch a movie. :o) (without binging, I hope)))
Yep, I need to get on with it (!!). I've been around 155 pounds for about 2 months now and I UNDERSTAND that that is a pretty good weight to be and that there are a bazillion people in the world that would LOVE to be that weight etc. etc. etc.However.
I am not those people and I have my own particular journey that I'm working on and staying at the same weight for this long IS. NOT. ACCEPTABLE. I am only 3.2 pounds away from the goal I first set for myself last year - that is the weight at which attending weight watchers meetings will be free for me again. I have been "so close, yet so far away" for way too stinking long!
So.
I have decided that I'm going to make myself go to weight watchers every week (and pay for it every week) until I've reached 152 pounds (my next goal). Normally, I only go once a month, but that doesn't seem to have been working for me and if I know that it is costing me ... and a lot! every week, then I might be more motivated to GET ON WITH IT.
Having said that - I made this decision yesterday and I did not do the most fantastic today. I have been trying to limit what I eat and trying to drink my water, but I did not write down what I ate and I actually was not able to exercise. But, I am still motivated and think that the sooner I lose these 3.2 pounds the less money it'll cost me.
So, my goals are as follows:
~to drink water a lot. I usually don't include this in my goals, but I'm thinking it might keep me from eating too much or choosing coffee with cream instead.
~to start writing down what I'm eating (but man, that's gonna be hard cuz I'm so totally addicted to eating right now... but i can do it - i've done it before and i'll do it again).
~to come here and blog about it alot
~to try to exercise as often as possible
And that's that.
((My sister just got here and we're gonna go watch a movie. :o) (without binging, I hope)))
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Tomorrow
Oh I'm having one of those weeks/weekends where I'm not really trying too hard... my plan is to start strong again tomorrow. Seems like every time I want to restart again something comes up to distract me or something. But, I don't think I've really gained weight here so that is okay - I'm going to WW on Tuesday - no matter what. I know I'm gonna try to think of some reason not to, but I really need to go. Paying money to not lose weight isn't an option, so maybe if I pay that'll motivate me!!
Anyway, this was just a little nothing post to say that tomorrow is gonna be different.
For real this time.
Anyway, this was just a little nothing post to say that tomorrow is gonna be different.
For real this time.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Sigh
Okay, I've been avoiding this here blog for quite some time now. And I've been avoiding eating properly for about as long.
Boo.
We went away (twice), we had a lot of treats, I got off of my routine, and I just basically decided to enjoy myself.
Sigh.
I've been trying to get back on the bandwagon since Saturday - when we came back home - and I guess you could say that every day is going a wee bit better than the last, but I still have yet to do a day properly... that is, to exercise, and to write down my points and stay within them. I might do it today yet, but I'm not sure - we'll see how the rest of the afternoon goes!!
I always start the day on track, and then its just a matter of time until I just go nuts, and totally lose it. So, we'll see.
I just want to be good without spending my whole day thinking about food and what I wish I was eating and what I'm gonna eat next. I'm such an addict. It sucks.
But this is, afterall, a Lifelong Journey, is it not? So, it doesn't end here - I'm gonna keep trying.
Stupid Food.
Stupid Addiction.
Boo.
We went away (twice), we had a lot of treats, I got off of my routine, and I just basically decided to enjoy myself.
Sigh.
I've been trying to get back on the bandwagon since Saturday - when we came back home - and I guess you could say that every day is going a wee bit better than the last, but I still have yet to do a day properly... that is, to exercise, and to write down my points and stay within them. I might do it today yet, but I'm not sure - we'll see how the rest of the afternoon goes!!
I always start the day on track, and then its just a matter of time until I just go nuts, and totally lose it. So, we'll see.
I just want to be good without spending my whole day thinking about food and what I wish I was eating and what I'm gonna eat next. I'm such an addict. It sucks.
But this is, afterall, a Lifelong Journey, is it not? So, it doesn't end here - I'm gonna keep trying.
Stupid Food.
Stupid Addiction.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Happy Easter!
I can't believe its been 10 days since I've posted here. I've been alive - plugging away. I've been doing fairly well (or really well) this week so far. I went to the WW meeting and it helped me to have some good ideas for how to prep for this Easter weekend. I've been doing my best and I"ll share more with you later...
But for now I just wanted to share that today I went for a jog OUTSIDE! Where people could see me!!! Yeah, it was crazy. I enjoyed it but I found it to be tougher than the treadmill cuz I didn't know how fast I was going, and I think I went too fast and got tired out pretty quickly. But still, it was great and I'm proud.
I hope you're all having a good Easter! Enjoy it! But not too many mini eggs.... :o)
But for now I just wanted to share that today I went for a jog OUTSIDE! Where people could see me!!! Yeah, it was crazy. I enjoyed it but I found it to be tougher than the treadmill cuz I didn't know how fast I was going, and I think I went too fast and got tired out pretty quickly. But still, it was great and I'm proud.
I hope you're all having a good Easter! Enjoy it! But not too many mini eggs.... :o)
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
This Really Spoke To Me Today
Please go check out this article about our obsession with the scale, and our weight. I think it was exactly what I needed to hear this morning. I didn't go to WW yesterday cuz I knew the scale wasn't gonna show a loss - but I've been doing really well the past few weeks as far as exercise and lifestyle change goes. So, I'm going to go with the above mentioned article - which you should really really go see - and say that the lifestyle changes and exercise are more important than a scale telling me that my body mass is half a pound less than the week before. That is only one way to measure.
So - go read that article (you can click on the word article here and it will take you right to it... for those of you who didn't know)!
So - go read that article (you can click on the word article here and it will take you right to it... for those of you who didn't know)!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Okay, Okay ... I'm Back
Phew ... the past week has been pretty crazy for my WW self. Last Thursday and Friday, I totally rocked. I baked a cake and 4 dozen cupcakes, and iced them all WITHOUT HAVING ONE SINGLE LICK of icing.
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For me, that is a small - no wait - a HUGE miracle.
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I'll tell you how I did it. I knew that I would undoubtedly end up eating gobs of icing on those 2 days while I was baking, and didn't want to. So, I suddenly realized - I DON'T HAVE TO! But I knew I would need some pretty good motivation.So, I went shopping on Thursday, and bought myself a nice new top (for $9.99) and said that if I didn't snitch - even a taste - then I could keep the top and wear it to Elan's party on Saturday. If I DID snitch, I had to return the top to the store.
Well, it worked.
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However, note to self: next time you have a great idea like this, make sure it covers ALL the bases. I probably should have said something more like - if I didn't overeat on cake or icing at all while said item was in the house, then I'd get a reward.
Because, after I succeeded and had already worn the top, I totally proceeded to snitch way too much leftover cake on Sunday and Monday. Boo.
I spent a few days spinning my wheels and feeling gross, but have now kicked it back into gear and hope to stay on program for the rest of this week!! It drives me NUTS how my mind works according to the Weight Watchers week - I didn't get back on track until Wednesday, cuz thats when my WW week starts. Oh well. At least I have a WW week to kick me back on track.
So, I've gotten back on the treadmill yesterday and today, and only went one point over yesterday. I'm hoping to stay within my points today and get a star for that too.
And there you have it, my crazy week summed up for you.
Oh, one more thing. I started doing some childcare last week to make some more money for us. I'll be doing it 3 days per week from now on. And I realized that THAT is also something very tough for me - cuz when I'm stressed out with the kids, I go to food. And with a 9 month old, 12 month old, 3 and 3/4 old, and 3 and a half year old, I do have moments of stress. Many. So, that's my new thing to work on - not eating to comfort myself while the extra kids are here. I'll try to keep you posted on how thats going too.
Happy Thursday Everyone!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
My Report Back
Okay, so I did it - I got up even earlier this morning in order to get on the treadmill and it worked for the most part. Elan still woke up in the middle, but 25 minutes in, instead of 5 minutes in, so that's not so bad. I still managed to finish my 3 point jog. And now I'm on target for my points so far today. I WILL NOT fall off this bandwagon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So there.
I can do it. (And you can too).
So there.
I can do it. (And you can too).
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Confession Time
Ugh.
I ate SO MUCH food today. Its not even funny. And I know it started out being stress-related. Then it was "oh, I've already screwed up, I might as well enjoy a "day off"" Then it was "Holy Cow! I suck!" (which led me to eat more) and so on.
Icky.
And since today is the start of my WW week, I have to be very careful not to let that mindset carry on to thinking that I've already messed this week up and I might as well wait till next week to be good again. Especially considering the birthday cake temptation issue that will be showing up tomorrow and hanging out for a few days.
Ack.
I must start fresh tomorrow morning. For me, that's gonna hafta mean getting on the treadmill EARLY. I've gotten up early to jog 2 out of the last 3 mornings, and 5 minutes into it, Elan has woken up both times and I've had to quit.
Argh.
So, tomorrow, I guess I'll get up even earlier! Which will be tricky - cuz Trev is going to work at 1:00 this morning. So, he won't be here to help me wake up. But, I can do this. If I jog, I'll feel good about myself and that will prompt me to eat right.
(Sigh)
I'll report back to you all tomorrow.
I ate SO MUCH food today. Its not even funny. And I know it started out being stress-related. Then it was "oh, I've already screwed up, I might as well enjoy a "day off"" Then it was "Holy Cow! I suck!" (which led me to eat more) and so on.
Icky.
And since today is the start of my WW week, I have to be very careful not to let that mindset carry on to thinking that I've already messed this week up and I might as well wait till next week to be good again. Especially considering the birthday cake temptation issue that will be showing up tomorrow and hanging out for a few days.
Ack.
I must start fresh tomorrow morning. For me, that's gonna hafta mean getting on the treadmill EARLY. I've gotten up early to jog 2 out of the last 3 mornings, and 5 minutes into it, Elan has woken up both times and I've had to quit.
Argh.
So, tomorrow, I guess I'll get up even earlier! Which will be tricky - cuz Trev is going to work at 1:00 this morning. So, he won't be here to help me wake up. But, I can do this. If I jog, I'll feel good about myself and that will prompt me to eat right.
(Sigh)
I'll report back to you all tomorrow.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
My Thoughts Today
Oh, they are many... my brain is all over the place and I'm driving myself crazy. I had plans for a few different post ideas here, but now I think they're all gonna be jumbled into one.
Lets start with confessions and boasting... I have to tell you that this morning was one of the first times in a while that I ate a bunch out of stress and didn't care. The good news? It was really only 6 points worth... The bad news? I wasn't hungry, I've been doing good lately, and after that little binge, I am tempted to just be mad at myself all day for this, and it spoiled my lunch, which I am now craving even though I'm not hungry - simply cuz it is routine to eat lunch right now. grrr.
Okay, the boasting - I have gotten up before the kids yesterday and today and done my jogging. YAY. I have been slowly boosting the length of the jog and the speed of the jog. So today, I was up to a 5 minute brisk walk, followed by 21 minutes of jogging 5.3 mph and then a 7 minute cooldown walk. So, I'm pretty happy with myself for getting "back on" the exercise bandwagon. I put that in quotes cuz really - last week when I "fell off" the exercise bandwagon - all that meant is that I only jogged 3 times in one week -not 7. Which actually makes me laugh because that is still pretty good. But this week, I'd really like to do it daily, and so that is my goal again.
What else?
I've been feeling fat lately. Not feeling the boosted self esteem that I've talked about here before. Now that could be a symptom that a certain feminine experience is about to occur to me, but it makes me mad. How can I possibly look in the mirror at this body I've worked very hard to get to and see only the fat and the rolls??? Come on, Colleen!!! It just makes me mad that I still feel that. I think I'm going to have to accept that even the thinnest woman in the world could look in the mirror and see fat. That is something I'm going to have to work on with myself. I know that most people don't lose weight and then keep it off and I'd really like to not be one of those people. So one of the battles I'm going to have to fight is in my mind. Well really that is the biggest one. Learning to love myself just for what I am and then take care of this body just because its the right thing to do. But my brain is just so silly.
Anyway, I lost 0.4 last week - which was pretty much what I expected cuz I was bang on program for about half the week and the other half, I did pretty good but not perfectly. These last 4 pounds till my next goal are proving to be difficult! I think its just the lighter you get, the slower it goes. But even a 0.2 loss per week is better than nothing - and is better than a gain!!
So, I will keep on going! Sorry for the long rant. But I feel better getting that off my chest. Happy Thursday, Friends.
Lets start with confessions and boasting... I have to tell you that this morning was one of the first times in a while that I ate a bunch out of stress and didn't care. The good news? It was really only 6 points worth... The bad news? I wasn't hungry, I've been doing good lately, and after that little binge, I am tempted to just be mad at myself all day for this, and it spoiled my lunch, which I am now craving even though I'm not hungry - simply cuz it is routine to eat lunch right now. grrr.
Okay, the boasting - I have gotten up before the kids yesterday and today and done my jogging. YAY. I have been slowly boosting the length of the jog and the speed of the jog. So today, I was up to a 5 minute brisk walk, followed by 21 minutes of jogging 5.3 mph and then a 7 minute cooldown walk. So, I'm pretty happy with myself for getting "back on" the exercise bandwagon. I put that in quotes cuz really - last week when I "fell off" the exercise bandwagon - all that meant is that I only jogged 3 times in one week -not 7. Which actually makes me laugh because that is still pretty good. But this week, I'd really like to do it daily, and so that is my goal again.
What else?
I've been feeling fat lately. Not feeling the boosted self esteem that I've talked about here before. Now that could be a symptom that a certain feminine experience is about to occur to me, but it makes me mad. How can I possibly look in the mirror at this body I've worked very hard to get to and see only the fat and the rolls??? Come on, Colleen!!! It just makes me mad that I still feel that. I think I'm going to have to accept that even the thinnest woman in the world could look in the mirror and see fat. That is something I'm going to have to work on with myself. I know that most people don't lose weight and then keep it off and I'd really like to not be one of those people. So one of the battles I'm going to have to fight is in my mind. Well really that is the biggest one. Learning to love myself just for what I am and then take care of this body just because its the right thing to do. But my brain is just so silly.
Anyway, I lost 0.4 last week - which was pretty much what I expected cuz I was bang on program for about half the week and the other half, I did pretty good but not perfectly. These last 4 pounds till my next goal are proving to be difficult! I think its just the lighter you get, the slower it goes. But even a 0.2 loss per week is better than nothing - and is better than a gain!!
So, I will keep on going! Sorry for the long rant. But I feel better getting that off my chest. Happy Thursday, Friends.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Plugging Away
Oh, I almost gave up this week - the bandwagon is a very tipsy thing - and it is SO SO SO easy to fall right off. We went to Saskatoon last weekend to visit Trev's parents and had a lovely time. I stayed right on track on Friday on the drive up there (which is something I'm proud of) and actually, I did really really well on Saturday (which was Valentine's Day and included a crazy fun time of watersliding, as well as a BIG meal out at Moxie's) - and doing well, despite that big meal, is another thing I'm really proud of.
What I'm not proud of is that on Sunday (after the pressure-filled Valentine's Day was over) I fell off of that stupid bandwagon. And do you know why?? Because I got too hungry, and then made a poor decision about lunch (Vern's by the slice, for those of you who know what that is) and then, my crazy brain playing my silly mind-games took it from there.
Because, in my head, you can't have a little slip up for lunch and then finish the day well. Oh no. Once I've made one little mistake - THAT'S IT!!! IT'S ALL OVER!!! PUT AWAY YOUR TRACKER AND GO TO TOWN, BABY!!!!
Grrr.
So. It took me until yesterday to finally get back on track after said slip-up. And I find it very interesting because Weight Watchers' big thing lately is to be careful not to get too hungry. ((as an aside - isn't that SO different than Weigh Down was??!!)) Anyway, I think they're right. If you are able to make your food decisions before you are totally famished, you will think more clearly. Interesting.
So, Monday I ate everything in sight. Tuesday, I tried to get back on the bandwagon by writing everything down again and getting on the treadmill again. But as previously mentioned, that bandwagon is a peskily slippery thing, and is not easy to get onto. And then finally, yesterday I did stay within my points.
yay.
Now the trick will be to stick with it. I have 6 pounds to lose, and have changed my goal date to March 24th - which is the one year anniversary of joining WW last time. I think that 6 pounds in 5 weeks is a lot more do-able for me than 6 pounds in 4 weeks. For some reason, even losing a pound a week is a majorly difficult thing for me.
Oh, and yes, I do know that this sort of a number goal is not good and will only make me frustrated when all of my good efforts don't work. But I'm still doing it. :o)
Okay, that's enough babble from me today. Happy Thursday everyone.
What I'm not proud of is that on Sunday (after the pressure-filled Valentine's Day was over) I fell off of that stupid bandwagon. And do you know why?? Because I got too hungry, and then made a poor decision about lunch (Vern's by the slice, for those of you who know what that is) and then, my crazy brain playing my silly mind-games took it from there.
Because, in my head, you can't have a little slip up for lunch and then finish the day well. Oh no. Once I've made one little mistake - THAT'S IT!!! IT'S ALL OVER!!! PUT AWAY YOUR TRACKER AND GO TO TOWN, BABY!!!!
Grrr.
So. It took me until yesterday to finally get back on track after said slip-up. And I find it very interesting because Weight Watchers' big thing lately is to be careful not to get too hungry. ((as an aside - isn't that SO different than Weigh Down was??!!)) Anyway, I think they're right. If you are able to make your food decisions before you are totally famished, you will think more clearly. Interesting.
So, Monday I ate everything in sight. Tuesday, I tried to get back on the bandwagon by writing everything down again and getting on the treadmill again. But as previously mentioned, that bandwagon is a peskily slippery thing, and is not easy to get onto. And then finally, yesterday I did stay within my points.
yay.
Now the trick will be to stick with it. I have 6 pounds to lose, and have changed my goal date to March 24th - which is the one year anniversary of joining WW last time. I think that 6 pounds in 5 weeks is a lot more do-able for me than 6 pounds in 4 weeks. For some reason, even losing a pound a week is a majorly difficult thing for me.
Oh, and yes, I do know that this sort of a number goal is not good and will only make me frustrated when all of my good efforts don't work. But I'm still doing it. :o)
Okay, that's enough babble from me today. Happy Thursday everyone.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Some Thoughts
Well, I've been doing really well - out of the past 9 days, I've gotten stickers for 8 of them - so that's awesome. BUT, I'm not getting a sticker today. I had a bit of a stressful afternoon, and really really wanted to eat everything in sight. The good news? I didn't - but I did end up using my points up by 7 pm and then I did eat another 4 points. And so I'll use some of my flex points for them. And I know that that is totally okay and totally allowed, but in order to get a sticker for the day, I have to write my points down and stay within them... so thats that. Tomorrow, I'm planning on getting a sticker again.
Meanwhile, I have a few other things I wanna talk about here. First of all - I love that there are a few new people that peeked in on me coming from Amanda's blog! The more people, the more accountability, I think. Thanks for your comments!! :o)
Secondly, I have a PVR (what do they call that in the states - a Tivo??) anyway, and I can record tv and so i have it set to record my favorites, including Oprah everyday. And I just got around today to watching Oprah's show from last week's Monday (January 5th) in which she talks in great honesty about her recent weight gain in the past few years and what she's going to do about it.
And if you are AT ALL someone who struggles with weight - you NEED to see this show. Download it. Do something - just see it. Please. PLEASE! Oprah is so honest and real about her struggles with food and especially about self-esteem. And I love her thoughts about what needs to change.... which is that a person must learn to love themselves. And also to figure out what you are really hungry for.
Which brings me to my last thought this evening - Oprah ended the show by laying out 4 questions that we all must ask ourselves (well, really it was Bob Greene who was asking the questions...) but anyway, I've decided that I'm going to answer them in the next few days on my blog here.
But I'm tired and its time for bed, so I'm gonna leave this post as it is!! :o)
Meanwhile, I have a few other things I wanna talk about here. First of all - I love that there are a few new people that peeked in on me coming from Amanda's blog! The more people, the more accountability, I think. Thanks for your comments!! :o)
Secondly, I have a PVR (what do they call that in the states - a Tivo??) anyway, and I can record tv and so i have it set to record my favorites, including Oprah everyday. And I just got around today to watching Oprah's show from last week's Monday (January 5th) in which she talks in great honesty about her recent weight gain in the past few years and what she's going to do about it.
And if you are AT ALL someone who struggles with weight - you NEED to see this show. Download it. Do something - just see it. Please. PLEASE! Oprah is so honest and real about her struggles with food and especially about self-esteem. And I love her thoughts about what needs to change.... which is that a person must learn to love themselves. And also to figure out what you are really hungry for.
Which brings me to my last thought this evening - Oprah ended the show by laying out 4 questions that we all must ask ourselves (well, really it was Bob Greene who was asking the questions...) but anyway, I've decided that I'm going to answer them in the next few days on my blog here.
But I'm tired and its time for bed, so I'm gonna leave this post as it is!! :o)
Friday, January 9, 2009
Still At It
So I've been working this week at staying within my points and writing them down - if I do that each day, then I'm giving myself a sticker on the calendar. I started on Monday and so far I've got 4 stickers - so I'm doing good! I'm not sure whether I'll add exercise to the criteria of how to get a sticker for next week - in some ways, I think that adding that extra pressure just makes me give up on the eating too - which I know is just silly. But that's my brain.
Elan hasn't woken up yet this morning (its 7:50) and that's late for her AND she never woke up for her feeding around 4:00!! So, I'm going a little stir-crazy, waiting for her to get up! (Yes, I checked and she IS alive) :o) She must just be growing. So, I'm really happy because I got up when Trevor did at 6:30 and I've actually already had a shower! and washed the dishes! and unloaded the dishwasher! and checked my email! HOORAY! Yesterday I was feeling overwhelmed and like I didn't have enough time to get stuff done, so this bit of extra time this morning has been fantastic.
Maybe I'll go work on taking down the tree.
Elan hasn't woken up yet this morning (its 7:50) and that's late for her AND she never woke up for her feeding around 4:00!! So, I'm going a little stir-crazy, waiting for her to get up! (Yes, I checked and she IS alive) :o) She must just be growing. So, I'm really happy because I got up when Trevor did at 6:30 and I've actually already had a shower! and washed the dishes! and unloaded the dishwasher! and checked my email! HOORAY! Yesterday I was feeling overwhelmed and like I didn't have enough time to get stuff done, so this bit of extra time this morning has been fantastic.
Maybe I'll go work on taking down the tree.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Whoops
Okay, just for the record, I did count my points for the rest of that day, and STAYED within my limit - even with the turkey dinner, so that was something.
:o)
I've also been counting since yesterday morning, and I'm feeling better now without all that extra food in me all the time. I also went shopping yesterday and bought a ton of veggies which I'm trying to remember to snack on first before I go to the junk food cupboard (man, I shouldn't even HAVE a junk food cupboard...!)
Anyway, the holidays are over and weight watchers Colleen is trying to make a comeback. I only have 10 pounds to lose until I can go to WW for free - till my goal, according to this blog. Once I get there, I'm going to make a new goal, cuz technically I'd like to be a bit less than that, but we'll worry about that when the time comes.
ACK, I just checked the calendar, and I have 10 weeks till Elan turns one. I remember when she was born, saying to myself that I would NOT let it take one whole year to get back down to my goal weight... well, if I don't turn up the heat here, it might be more than that! ACK! So, I guess I'm gonna have to work at this. Because I WILL BE 152 by March 16th. And that's a promise I'm making to me.
:o)
I've also been counting since yesterday morning, and I'm feeling better now without all that extra food in me all the time. I also went shopping yesterday and bought a ton of veggies which I'm trying to remember to snack on first before I go to the junk food cupboard (man, I shouldn't even HAVE a junk food cupboard...!)
Anyway, the holidays are over and weight watchers Colleen is trying to make a comeback. I only have 10 pounds to lose until I can go to WW for free - till my goal, according to this blog. Once I get there, I'm going to make a new goal, cuz technically I'd like to be a bit less than that, but we'll worry about that when the time comes.
ACK, I just checked the calendar, and I have 10 weeks till Elan turns one. I remember when she was born, saying to myself that I would NOT let it take one whole year to get back down to my goal weight... well, if I don't turn up the heat here, it might be more than that! ACK! So, I guess I'm gonna have to work at this. Because I WILL BE 152 by March 16th. And that's a promise I'm making to me.
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