Tuesday, May 12th...

Walk/Jog +3 (YAY I finally got on that treadmill in the morning before Elan woke up...)
cereal & milk -4
snitch Elan's cheerios (dumb, dumb, dumb!) -2
granola bar -2
yummy yummy sandwich, veggies, and dip -4
dessert (don't even ask what it was.... okay... I'll tell you - nutella and a corner of Elan's leftover lunch toast... again-dumb, dumb, dumb)-2
yogurt & frozen raspberries -2
That leaves me with: 11

Monday

Okay, so Saturday and Sunday were both a bit of a write off - but not so so so bad. (I probably haven't gone over my weekly bonus point allowance of 35 points). That being said, I MUST do well today and tomorrow if I want to have any success at all. So, here is Monday's story as it unfolds:

Honey bunches of oasts with cinnamon clusters (they're YUMMY!) and Skim Milk -4
grapes and animal crackers -2
yummy sandwich -3
slurpee -2 (? not sure how much a slurpee is - I shared a small one with both my kids and we didn't finish it at all...)
timbit -1
5 jellybeans -1(?) I have no idea how many points 5 jelly beans would actually be...
sausage-5, cauliflower & cheesewhiz-2, bbq sauce -2
evening snacks-3
=-2 total
(cereal snack in night -2) = -4 total

Friday So Far

latin groove +1
breakfast -5
snack -1
snitch -1
veggies, grilled cheese & soup -5
vitamuffin -1
icing snitches -3 (DOH!)
burger -5
macaroni salad -2
vitamuffin sundae -2
walk +1
total:0

Thursday's Progress

8:00 am:
excercise? nope - not yet - thought Elan would be awake any second, so i didn't... then she wasn't... boo.
1:23 pm:
I've still not exercised but I've been drinking a ton of water (well, a ton for me at least). in a way its helping, but I'm still totally dying to go have a nice choclately snack...
4:58pm:
I guess I'm doing okay - I can't belive how much resisting I've been doing today... shows me how much I've really been eating. We're going to a friend's house for supper tonight, so it might be a little sketchy, but I'll do my best and report back later! :o)

POINTS: (I get 23 per day) (my goal for today is to stay as close as possible to them, but especially just to start tracking again)

miniwheats and skim milk -3
snitches of E's cheerios -1
4 Animal Crackers -1
pre lunch snack (a bit of leftover baked salmon) -1
casserole, 1/2 breadstick, veggies & dip - 6
vitamuffin -1
a few safeway chips and a swig of E's chocolate milk -1
Supper At Agatha's -15???
snack -2
total: -8
but that's okay cuz at least i counted for the first time in weeks!! :o)

GET ON WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is what I've been yelling at myself for the past little while. I don't know if you've seen Monty Python and the Quest for the Holy Grail or not, but I thought I'd spice this up with a little pic as well...
Yep, I need to get on with it (!!). I've been around 155 pounds for about 2 months now and I UNDERSTAND that that is a pretty good weight to be and that there are a bazillion people in the world that would LOVE to be that weight etc. etc. etc.

However.
I am not those people and I have my own particular journey that I'm working on and staying at the same weight for this long IS. NOT. ACCEPTABLE. I am only 3.2 pounds away from the goal I first set for myself last year - that is the weight at which attending weight watchers meetings will be free for me again. I have been "so close, yet so far away" for way too stinking long!

So.
I have decided that I'm going to make myself go to weight watchers every week (and pay for it every week) until I've reached 152 pounds (my next goal). Normally, I only go once a month, but that doesn't seem to have been working for me and if I know that it is costing me ... and a lot! every week, then I might be more motivated to GET ON WITH IT.

Having said that - I made this decision yesterday and I did not do the most fantastic today. I have been trying to limit what I eat and trying to drink my water, but I did not write down what I ate and I actually was not able to exercise. But, I am still motivated and think that the sooner I lose these 3.2 pounds the less money it'll cost me.

So, my goals are as follows:
~to drink water a lot. I usually don't include this in my goals, but I'm thinking it might keep me from eating too much or choosing coffee with cream instead.
~to start writing down what I'm eating (but man, that's gonna be hard cuz I'm so totally addicted to eating right now... but i can do it - i've done it before and i'll do it again).
~to come here and blog about it alot
~to try to exercise as often as possible

And that's that.

((My sister just got here and we're gonna go watch a movie. :o) (without binging, I hope)))

Tomorrow

Oh I'm having one of those weeks/weekends where I'm not really trying too hard... my plan is to start strong again tomorrow. Seems like every time I want to restart again something comes up to distract me or something. But, I don't think I've really gained weight here so that is okay - I'm going to WW on Tuesday - no matter what. I know I'm gonna try to think of some reason not to, but I really need to go. Paying money to not lose weight isn't an option, so maybe if I pay that'll motivate me!!

Anyway, this was just a little nothing post to say that tomorrow is gonna be different.

For real this time.

Stupid Murphy's Law

Okay, something I like to do is set my alarm a little early and get up to exercise before the kids wake up. But for the past 2 weeks (when we were at home, at least), Elan has been waking up earlier and earlier - yesterday and the day before it was something like 20 after 6. So, today I decided not to get up at 6:00 only to be interrupted in the middle of a jog. I woke up at 6:30 when Trevor left, but again, didn't get on the treadmill because I thought Elan would be up any minute.

Well.

Its now 7:23 and she is just starting to babble in there. And I could easily have gotten my walk/jog done.

Grrrrrrrrrr.

Guess I'll try to sneak one in at nap time...