Muffin in night -2
Breakfast -3
((Updated on Saturday morning: Hmmm... looks like I'll have to try to remember the rest))
yogurt -3
casserole -4
muffin -3
pb&j -3
smoothie -6
WORK +2
pizza -6
pudding -2
LEFT:-7
(flex points left 21)
Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Another Day... We Can Do This!
I know that almost everyone who reads this is also working on their own weight journey... so I'm including you in this too... WE CAN DO THIS!
Today's points (23):
Treadmill +2
Froot Loops -4
muffins & coffee -5
soup & grilled cheese -4
making muffins with kids -4
casserole -5
rice krispie square -2
work +2
crackers @ work -1
casserole -5
vitamuffin sundae -3
LEFT: -6
((flex left now 28))
Today's points (23):
Treadmill +2
Froot Loops -4
muffins & coffee -5
soup & grilled cheese -4
making muffins with kids -4
casserole -5
rice krispie square -2
work +2
crackers @ work -1
casserole -5
vitamuffin sundae -3
LEFT: -6
((flex left now 28))
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Battling the Mind
So, I've said it before, but I'll say it again... its all in your mind. I can't believe how much my thinking affects my perception of myself, which affects how I act and what I eat and whether I exercise - i.e. I have felt like a failure and therefore when I look in the mirror, I see nothing but fat, and so I eat whatever to comfort myself and don't even bother to exercise.
I KNOW.
It sounds stupid.
But that is the way my brain works and I know its the way a lot of people's brains work - sadly.
So, yesterday, I went to a WW meeting and I didn't want to pay to weigh in cuz I'd already done my weigh in for January, but I decided to be brave and get on the scale before I went. I almost didn't cuz I thought I'd probably gained about 5 pounds over the past 3 weeks -because that's what I thought and I convinced myself when I looked in the mirror that I looked 4 pounds heavier and everything.
But I was brave, and got on that scale, and guess what? I haven't gained anything - at all! I am exactly the same weight I was 3 weeks ago.
I was shocked. Really shocked. And after I found that out, I went and looked in the mirror and suddenly couldn't see that extra fat! How ridiculous!
Anyway, I'm carrying on with my attempts to get my eating/exercise and weight back where I want them. I'm still 8.6 pounds above my WW official goal weight and actually about 20.6 pounds above MY goal weight for myself. I would like to get there one day - lots of people think I'm silly, but I'm not. I would really like to have that buffer between MY goal weight and my WW goal weight, so that if something happens and I start to gain like I have over the past 7 months, that my high weight would still be a healthy weight for me - and one that I can still go to the WW meetings for free!
Okay, so todays points (23 total):
Mini wheats -3
Treadmill +2
yogurt & crackers -2
muffin & cheese -4
coffee -1
1/2 grilled cheese and veggies & elan's leftover icecream cone -5
supper-4
vitamuffin -1
WORK +2
spaghetti and veggies at 11 pm -5
vitamuffin and icecream -3
LEFT: -1
I KNOW.
It sounds stupid.
But that is the way my brain works and I know its the way a lot of people's brains work - sadly.
So, yesterday, I went to a WW meeting and I didn't want to pay to weigh in cuz I'd already done my weigh in for January, but I decided to be brave and get on the scale before I went. I almost didn't cuz I thought I'd probably gained about 5 pounds over the past 3 weeks -because that's what I thought and I convinced myself when I looked in the mirror that I looked 4 pounds heavier and everything.
But I was brave, and got on that scale, and guess what? I haven't gained anything - at all! I am exactly the same weight I was 3 weeks ago.
I was shocked. Really shocked. And after I found that out, I went and looked in the mirror and suddenly couldn't see that extra fat! How ridiculous!
Anyway, I'm carrying on with my attempts to get my eating/exercise and weight back where I want them. I'm still 8.6 pounds above my WW official goal weight and actually about 20.6 pounds above MY goal weight for myself. I would like to get there one day - lots of people think I'm silly, but I'm not. I would really like to have that buffer between MY goal weight and my WW goal weight, so that if something happens and I start to gain like I have over the past 7 months, that my high weight would still be a healthy weight for me - and one that I can still go to the WW meetings for free!
Okay, so todays points (23 total):
Mini wheats -3
Treadmill +2
yogurt & crackers -2
muffin & cheese -4
coffee -1
1/2 grilled cheese and veggies & elan's leftover icecream cone -5
supper-4
vitamuffin -1
WORK +2
spaghetti and veggies at 11 pm -5
vitamuffin and icecream -3
LEFT: -1
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Trying to Track Again
I have been spinning my wheels this month and I have a ton of emotions about it and this whole weight loss/maintenance/weight gain thing... and I have had a new post open on this blog SEVERAL times this month to come and blog about it all, but I just don't even really know what to say. I'm sooooo frustrated, but I really can't give up, or I'll just keep gaining and gaining and easily would be waay heavier than I've even been before, I can just tell.
SO, I'll keep plugging away at it. I was doing really well for the first 2 weeks of January (even lost 0.6 pounds the over the one week where I weighed in), but then our boss gave us a "Christmas Bonus" of 2 weeks of free staff meals to eat while we're working and somehow, in my mind, that translated to "there is no possible way to stay on track while having free delicious boston pizza food and now i have to lose all control"... what can i say... my though processes are just kinda wierd.
BUT, I do want to keep at it - I do want to lose weight and I really don't want to be out of control any more.
SO, I am going to do the one thing that works for me, and that is force myself to track and the only way I can do that is by posting it here for you all to see... I know, its so exciting too... sorry.
Here we go:
Points (24 total):
Froot Loops -4
yogurt -1
chocolate bar -2
latte -2
lunch -6
chocolate chips -1
v itamuffin & whip -2
LEFT: 6
SO, I'll keep plugging away at it. I was doing really well for the first 2 weeks of January (even lost 0.6 pounds the over the one week where I weighed in), but then our boss gave us a "Christmas Bonus" of 2 weeks of free staff meals to eat while we're working and somehow, in my mind, that translated to "there is no possible way to stay on track while having free delicious boston pizza food and now i have to lose all control"... what can i say... my though processes are just kinda wierd.
BUT, I do want to keep at it - I do want to lose weight and I really don't want to be out of control any more.
SO, I am going to do the one thing that works for me, and that is force myself to track and the only way I can do that is by posting it here for you all to see... I know, its so exciting too... sorry.
Here we go:
Points (24 total):
Froot Loops -4
yogurt -1
chocolate bar -2
latte -2
lunch -6
chocolate chips -1
v itamuffin & whip -2
LEFT: 6
Sunday, January 17, 2010
An Excellent Idea
Check this article out if you have any time:
http://donmilleris.com/2010/01/01/living-a-good-story-an-alternative-to-new-years-resolutions/
Its about how making new year's resolutions rarely works, and how to "live a good story" instead - which sounds like a great idea to me. I'm going to give it some thought and try to follow his steps to planning a story for myself for this year!
:o)
Check it out!
http://donmilleris.com/2010/01/01/living-a-good-story-an-alternative-to-new-years-resolutions/
Its about how making new year's resolutions rarely works, and how to "live a good story" instead - which sounds like a great idea to me. I'm going to give it some thought and try to follow his steps to planning a story for myself for this year!
:o)
Check it out!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Happy New Years!
I just read this article about surviving New Years Eve and I liked it, so I thought I'd share.
http://www.weightwatchers.ca/util/art/index_art.aspx?tabnum=1&art_id=36631&sc=3046
Check it out!
On a side note, I went to WW on Tuesday and, after allowing myself a Christmas splurge, had gained another 1.6 pounds over the past one month. Which, really isn't bad at all, considering! But the bad part is that I have gained about 1.5 pounds per month for about 7 months now... and that is adding up! SO, I purchased myself some coupons for WW on Tuesday, so that I will be forced to go more often... this way its already paid for, so I don't have to dish out the money and I also don't have to stand in the line to pay before I stand in the line to weigh. So, that will be good. I now have 7.2 pounds to lose to get back to going to the meetings for free. I have 7 coupons left - which I can use one/month or one/week or however often I decide to go. But, I have decieded to get back to weight loss mode and out of "maintenance" mode - which wasn't really working so well for me, anyway!! :o) I wrote everything down yesterday - and didn't even use one bonus point! I'm writing things down today and am planning on using several bonus points tonight, because we have much yummy food planned for new years eve.
Anyway, that's where I'm at today and thought I'd share. I hope you all have a great New Year's Eve and a wonderful year in 2010! :o)
http://www.weightwatchers.ca/util/art/index_art.aspx?tabnum=1&art_id=36631&sc=3046
Check it out!
On a side note, I went to WW on Tuesday and, after allowing myself a Christmas splurge, had gained another 1.6 pounds over the past one month. Which, really isn't bad at all, considering! But the bad part is that I have gained about 1.5 pounds per month for about 7 months now... and that is adding up! SO, I purchased myself some coupons for WW on Tuesday, so that I will be forced to go more often... this way its already paid for, so I don't have to dish out the money and I also don't have to stand in the line to pay before I stand in the line to weigh. So, that will be good. I now have 7.2 pounds to lose to get back to going to the meetings for free. I have 7 coupons left - which I can use one/month or one/week or however often I decide to go. But, I have decieded to get back to weight loss mode and out of "maintenance" mode - which wasn't really working so well for me, anyway!! :o) I wrote everything down yesterday - and didn't even use one bonus point! I'm writing things down today and am planning on using several bonus points tonight, because we have much yummy food planned for new years eve.
Anyway, that's where I'm at today and thought I'd share. I hope you all have a great New Year's Eve and a wonderful year in 2010! :o)
Friday, December 18, 2009
Still Here
Ouch - I just saw what date it was when I last posted here!!! ACK. I've had several posts floating through my mind over the past few months, but haven't actually typed any of them up. I've been involved in a few different competitions like I've mentioned - I didn't win or lose either of them, and I guess thats okay. I guess I've been debating about how transparent to be here... maintaining a weight loss is TOUGH and I'm not sure how much you all WANT to know about my thoughts and journey!! So, I've debated too much about what to type and haven't typed anything!
Oh well.
So, here I am, just saying I'm here. I hope you all have the Merriest of Christmases - enjoying yummy food, but not TOOOOO much yummy food. :o)
I'll be back in the New Year to share where I'm at - I'm still working at it, and finding its tougher than I would've thought. But I'm not giving up. This is, afterall, my lifelong problem to deal with. And I'm not gonna let it win. So there.
Happy Holidays Friends!
Oh well.
So, here I am, just saying I'm here. I hope you all have the Merriest of Christmases - enjoying yummy food, but not TOOOOO much yummy food. :o)
I'll be back in the New Year to share where I'm at - I'm still working at it, and finding its tougher than I would've thought. But I'm not giving up. This is, afterall, my lifelong problem to deal with. And I'm not gonna let it win. So there.
Happy Holidays Friends!
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